To work through trauma, you have to revisit the trauma. That brings up old memories and body sensations from when you were in that traumatic moment. As a result, I have been looking at ways to look after myself in all aspects of my life.

I’m making many changes this year in many different areas, at least for this first part of it, and I will see if anything else changes later in the year post-therapy.

One of the main tools in my mental health toolbox that I've used for over thirteen years now, is to take it day by day. One day everything is amazing and then another day nothing is good, so it makes life easier to handle if we break it down into smaller chunks of time. In the last few weeks during this third lockdown, I've begun focusing on the day and week I'm in. Anything more than that and I'm far too overwhelmed.

It's been a while again since I posted on my blog. If you've read any of my recent posts or follow me over on Instagram here you will be aware that I've been struggling with my mental health again for the last year and that I'm also currently undergoing CBT sessions with a therapist.

I wasn't sure if I would have a blog post for this weekend as I was struggling to decide what to write about. There are a couple of ideas that have been floating around my head this week, but they've not formed into a full blog post ideas as of yet. Here in the UK this weekend, our Prime Minister, Boris Johnson is possibly going to announce the start of lifting some of the lockdown restrictions from Monday.

It’s been a crazy last few months and I’ve really been struggling. I suffer from seasonal depression and because my moods were already low from my depression, anxiety and PTSD flashbacks, I’ve been finding it a real battle to be motivated to do anything the past few months.

By the time this blog goes up, it's going to be three weeks since I last posted.  It wasn't meant to be such a long break, but as some of you may know I've been having a few bad days here and there, which turned into a few bad weeks and a couple of bad months.  I'm going to start uploading here every two weeks and see how I go for a bit so I've got a bit longer to plan, write and edit blog posts than a week while things are a bit more of a challenge for me.  If you keep reading things will be explained to you.