Shattered
Today (Thursday) is my first day off after being back at work for three days and after two weeks off with tennis elbow, and I am shattered! I’d planned on running a few errands this morning but I woke up way early again for the third day in a row and my body is just not having any of it. Three 5.30 am wake ups in succession isn’t good for me, especially after two weeks of no alarms. I’ve had breakfast and watched a couple of YouTube videos and it’s now 8.07 am. I’m wanting to get a shower but I’m just far too comfy led on the sofa it’s gonna take me a bit to get up.
The first week back was going to be a challenge, I knew that. I’m on restricted duties so can’t lift anything too heavy, I can only tidy the shop for a few minutes before my elbow has had enough and it’s been a struggle therefore not to be bored. We got an email this week about what clothing brands and how many lines we’re due to get this spring-summer season so we can plan our new season layout in paper before getting it signed off in a few weeks. The deadline is February 20th but I got it back to our area manager and area visual merchandiser the next day. Planning the new season layouts is something that doesn’t involve my left elbow and so it’s something I could finally do! When it comes to the actual moving of brands and stock I will need some help, as I can only use one hand really at the moment because my left elbow just isn’t up to it just yet.
My elbow is a little better after the two weeks off though and I’m able to do a bit more than I could a few weeks ago, but there’s still a long way to go before it’s back at full strength. It’s just going to take time and patience, which I’m not very good with sometimes. I feel healthy and am itching to do the new season moves as the shop always looks at its worst at this time of year. When we’re able to get the new stock out over the next few weeks the shop instantly looks a lot better and that’s what I’m wanting.
Anyway, a point of me starting this post was to say that sometimes even though I may have planned errands to do on a certain day, sometimes my body says to you that today’s not the day and that I just need a chilled lazy day instead. It’s all about listening to my body, this is something that I’ve learnt over the years while battling my depression and PTSD. I take each day as it comes and I do what I can when I can. I am able to run my errands this Sunday as one was a food shop and any others can be done this coming Tuesday when I’m off again then.
It’s now 10 am and I’m showered and dressed in my Gryffindor comfies, currently brewing my third cup of tea of the day. Post shower I had a second brew and watched another couple of YouTube videos. I’m still feeling shattered and that I could just fall back asleep, even though I’ve been up for over four hours now.
I napped for a bit in the morning as I was just feeling so crappy. After lunch, I watched more YouTube videos and by the early evening, I was feeling a bit more like myself. No idea what’s been wrong with me today might be the three bad nights I’ve had in succession this week or it might be something completely different and unknown to me. Hopefully, I’ll feel better tomorrow. It's okay to change your plans for the day, especially if you've nothing specific like appointments planned if you wake up on the day and just don't feel well enough to run the errands.
