My Church Family

The first few weeks of February were tough for me.  There’s been a lot going on and one more thing made my mood dip.  I’ve been feeling really alone lately because the only person I’m seeing regularly is my housemate and I’m missing seeing all the other faces from my life.  

I’m still overcoming my trauma, I’m trying to understand my new walk as a Christian, this third lockdown seems to have been going on since March 2020, because of the restrictions we lived with in-between the lockdowns and then the one more thing happened that tipped the balance back into negativity for me.

I had a few extra gentle weeks and then one night a few Sundays ago I decided that enough was enough and in the morning I was going to choose joy.  I was going to do one task the next day for my socials and that way I'd be more productive than I had been.  I began to plan a few tasks into that week along with plenty of rest still, and I managed to do those tasks and tick them off the list.

That same week I also had a zoom call that lasted an hour and a half with a good friend from church, the next day I received a surprise bit of fun post from another friend from the church as well as meeting up with one of the pastors and his wife at church for a chat about what’s been going on with me.  Then that evening I led the best Lectio Divina I’ve done so far.

I realised that I am NOT alone and that I AM loved.  The following morning I got a clear plastic wallet, gathered together all the amazing cards my church family have sent me over the last year so they’re all in one place and then I can read them one after another when I feel alone.  I know the plastic wallet doesn’t look the best but it will do until I find a better solution.

What can you do to remind you that you have a community around you in low moments?