Obstacles

They are things that other people put in our way and also things we put in our own way. They are the physical barriers that stop us from moving forward as well as the imaginary ones we make up for ourselves. Our limiting core beliefs. Things people have told us about ourselves so many times that we now believe them as truth. Those beliefs we used in order to cope once upon a time during times of turmoil and stress, but no longer serve us or ring as true to us. But we are unclear how to change them or if we can even change them. People struggle with change, even change we initiate can be a struggle.

Once upon a time, I found it difficult to leave the house for anything other than work, appointments or shopping. Then one day I was fidgety, restless, I couldn’t settle at doing anything. I needed movement, forward motion and I needed fresh air. So I put on my trainers and coat and walked fifteen or so minutes into the town centre. I walked around window shopping letting my mind wander to neutral thoughts rather than the negative ones I was having back at home.

I can’t remember how long I was out for but by the time I made it home, my mind was in a much better place mentally. Because of how I’d been conditioned in a relationship I’d walked away from the year before, I didn’t think I was ‘allowed’ to leave the house for something like that, just to wander aimlessly.

It’s been many years since that first outing and I have come a long way. It’s not been an easy road and it’s been longer than I thought it would be. However, I am a much stronger person because of it.

I still have some obstacles to work through, it’s a never-ending journey; self-improvement and self-care.