Create

I create cards to give friends and family for Christmas, birthdays and other occasions, I create the look of the shop and the displays at work, I create rituals as part of my day; tea in the morning while writing my journal before work for example. I’ve created this blog within the last few weeks. I’ve created the life I have now over the last eleven years, building it and myself up from scratch.

After walking out on a long term relationship, I was an empty shell and I only had my family and work colleagues in my life. He’d slowly stopped me from seeing any friends I had when I met him, so I’ve had to build a new social network up from nothing over the last eleven years. People have come and gone from my life in that time and that is okay, I know now that some people come into your life for a reason and when that reason is reached, then they move on. Some of the people in my life now I know from before him and while I was with him; thank you to social media for keeping us in touch.

I had my ten year Facebook anniversary last week. I joined while I was with my ex so I could keep in touch with my brother who was travelling to Boston, USA at the time and so I could keep up to date with a friend's travels around Thailand. I wasn’t under my real name at the time, I used a nickname and my then-boyfriend wasn’t on it.

I create a lot in my days. How I want to feel, act, react, the meals I make to nourish myself, a good and positive mood in the morning when I wake up, my own happiness ... That last one is what I am concentrating on creating this year.